From the recording Crazy Boy
Lyrics
I learned too young
To walk fast at night
Keys between my fingers
Like a weapon held tight
Those eyes sliding over me
Like hands across my skin
Pretty words and smiling mouths
Hiding something underneath
So I look down
Cross the street
Pretend I'm stronger
Than the fear in me
Crazy boy
You say you're not the same
But I've seen too many wolves
Hiding behind sweet names
Crazy boy
My heart stays on defense
After surviving so long
You forget what living meant
Inside crowded bars
I count every door
Hands brushing too close
Like I've felt before
I just wanna laugh
Without watching every move
Without feeling the whole world
Breathing down my room
Maybe somewhere
There's still something true
But every time I try
The shadows come through
And I'm tired
So tired
Of turning fear
Into something cute
Sometimes I hate
The girl I became
Always watching shadows
Always expecting pain
I miss the innocence
Of walking without fear
Before every silence
Started sounding weird
And maybe one day
I'll open every lock
Stop hearing danger
In every single thought
Maybe one day
My heart will let somebody stay
Without preparing itself
For the moment they change
Crazy boy
Don't tell me to relax
You don't carry this weight
Every time you walk back
Crazy boy
I still wanna believe
But the world left scars
Too deep to leave